It's never been easy to come to a conclusion to answer this, However I wanna to say, I may have lost a battle once, but I will never lose it twice. 

A complete self should always determine to gives and takes, in no matter what kind of situation we're facing. Similarities do play a little part in this exercise, however , Accepting the one is never been enough, Accept as a whole is the whole idea of the philosophy of true Relationship if one-self is unable to accept, the other half part of the family, It'll never turn out well, as a result it's might causes even more dispute and argument. why not giving yourself a chance and look back what should be improved.

Life is just like a sailing boat, there's always ups and downs. I can't deny that, the rough sea have causes so much of damages to this sailing boat when rafting out into the big sea. My curiosity had paid a huge price, I have lost a crew, valuable and essential stuff to move from my origin to the next destination. If I have get prepare in building a bigger sailing boat, probably I won't as much as of now. At least I can still save the crew despite the rough sea we have been through.

Now, the storm was over, I have completely lose everything, I do not know how to continue my journey I'm totally despair for what I have lost, after battling with the rough sea. fighting against all odds, I have tried to savage as many as possible hoping I'm able to save as many as possible to minimize my losses. As soon as i saw my savage items, I saw my body is full of injuries and scars

 l laid down on a piece of plank looking at the blue sky, moments flashes through my mind and before I knew it, the wave have bring me to next destination. I am determined not to repair this small sailing boat, but to built a bigger sailing boat for a future sake. though scars and injuries might remind me of the past, but I believe this is a good lesson I can learn from.

I may lose once, but I will never lose twice. 



不要对人生的起起落落太在意,

所有状况也都是暂时的,

没有一个人会永远不变,

也没有一件事会永远不变,

输了面子没关系, 不要输掉心灵的力量就好,

只要内心不乱, 外界就很难改变你什么,

走自己的路, 按自己的原则, 好好生活 .

一件事，想通了是天堂，想不通就是地狱。既然活着，就要活好。有些时候我们由于

太小心眼，太在意身边的琐事而因小失大，得不偿失。有些事是否能引来麻烦和烦

恼，完全取决于我们如何看待和处理它。别总拿什么都当回事，别去钻牛角尖，别太

要面子，别小心眼。不在意，就是一种豁达、一种洒脱.

work can never be finished, huisong, keep repeating beside me, thanks bro, but, so much cases to handle in a single day, 9 cases from GWC, 5 cases from Airport, and remanding 3 aging cases to follow up. In a single day I managed to update bosses, how you expect me in return for the upcoming performance bonus, My direct superior, is on vacation leave to oversea, while I'm clearing all her cases for her. I still have to take care of your new cases for you too. I think you have over assign jobs for me, It's definitely crazy to follow up for you , while , your senior officer is taking her 2 weeks of vacation leave while I have to handle everything for her. sometimes, four of us were thinking have we done our part? how about our direct superior, did she fight for our benefits? it's a questionable issue. 1 week more to go, i expecting her to at least thanks me to clearing up her backlogs, without handle it over to me in orderly. 

A great and a guilty day where lots of food and drinks on the first day of CNY, first stop, Grandaunt place for lunch before we head down to uncle place for another set of buffet dinner again.. with heavy snacks and coffee. and Now I'm glurpping down a can of Sapporo Beer with peanuts ... whooohoo !! beer is men best friend !!! Sapporo rocks !!!

After a day of work. It's really emotionally feeling sucks. had enough of those daily complaining. about work and work and work. All can be done, Head out to the road, Run few kilometers run and did some reps of dumbell do help to ease the emotionally stress and fuming over work related issues.

Anyway i did enjoy today. Had lunch together with Ah- Song and Major to Old airport road for lunch, Toa Pa yoh Rojak and Fried hokkien Prawn noodles. not only, running help , food helps too, but it bring stress to my poor stomach..

It's seriously annoying to assist someone, while people don't give you much info and expecting me to waste the time and search everything all over again. Manager who doesn't know how to manage stuff this is seriously an issue. how this manager managed to climb all the way up to this position?

Yesterday:

A, please follow up, M please follow up. these are the two names often appears in our mailbox expecting both of us to follow up while you are inside the cubicle scrolling your Iphone talking over the phone, passing message this is how busy a manager is supposed to be ?

though, we have reply and answer most of the follows up, you still making a fool of yourself asking the same question despite we have keep you inside the loop. It's feeling really embarrassing at times when you try to reply all while everyone has already know what is happening at all. It's such a shame !!!!

enough of aging cases to follow-up together with new cases, tons and tons to work which will never come to an end. while you push to us. what is the purposes of you? you receive feedback, you passed feedback to us, we execute. Never ever thinks whether our group able to make it. blindly accept, and push to us. gain credit . we suffer.... !!! This is our organization culture.

Sometimes i believe human being is being too sensitive and prejudge a person by it's looks to determine a person personality, an example of these few people. I'm one of them. yes I am .

It was supposed to meet up with a developer this afternoon for a site survey, this particular case requires the developer to come up with a sum of money to built an extra infrastructure for his building tenant. In my mind no developer or building owner will come up with money just to pay for such infrastructure they'll definitely find ways and reasons to discard such ideas and claiming it's not their responsibility to built such a thing for their tenant convenience sake however this man whom I met this afternoon seems to be convenience with my explanation and agrees to built for the sake of their tenant to enjoy the luxury of having high speed Internet services. I'm pretty shock and couldn't believe a middle age man who is driving a stylish 3 series M3 generously willingly to pay this infrastructures for his tenant sake And he also doesn't look equally passionate too rather I find him, a challenging person to convince. To my surprise he really make me stunned for a moment.

Well I would say, luck is on my side this afternoon.

It's really very hard to say no. Shouldn't I be more sensible to say no, and it's really enough? After a pile of shit been clear another few set start dropping on my desk this morning. One after one. Boss I can't take it anymore of these shits anymore!!!!!!!!!!